Being sick hasn't been pleasant. I-- I think I should probably see a doctor about this. Is... Martha-sensei back from her vacation? I should probably go see if her she is. I don't think my fever has broken any and I'm continually tired. To keep my schuedule, I don't go to sleep until the time I've alloted myself. That... might be making it worse. And I haven't been able to move around too much so I haven't been eating too much.

Mion... I really want to go the game club, but I don't think I'll be able to today either. I'm sorry.

I haven't heard from Kadaj-kun, Cooper-san, or Martha-sensei in a while. I wonder if she's back from her vacation. And I wouldn't expect to heard from Itachi-sama since he's in charge of the place and has lots of things to do.

I've been sick for the past couple of days from what I remember. It's.. been tiring and rough. I didn't want to worry anyone so I didn't tell anyone. But... it just seems to be getting worse. I wonder... if I should ask to see one of the doctors....

Renji-kun still hasn't contacted me. I wonder if he's mad at me. I hope he isn't... but I'll admit I'm starting to get a little upset with him. I just haven't heard from him and I'm used to doing so. It's... I'm not sure.

I wonder if I should go to the game club this week.

Day Seven
Your Name: Shindou Chihiro
Suicidal Ideation: 0/10
Homicidal Ideation: 0/10
Amount of Sleep Last Night: Not much.
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain.: No.
Moods Experienced Today: Distant... I guess would be the correct word to express it. And lost as well.
Triggers: None
Significant Thoughts of the Day: I wish to get better.
Favorite Time of Day and Why: None
Least Favorite Time of Day and Why: None
How You Are Enjoying Your Therapy: I haven't been able to make it, I'm sorry.
Noticeable Improvements: No

I've been sick the past couple of days. I'm sorry for not telling anyone. But... I-- don't even know who everyone is anymore... I wonder... what and who this picture is for... I drew it... I think....

I've been trying to rest, but the coughing and fever keep me up. I think the times I do sleep is from pure exhaustion.

[[she's sick with the flu. she's been too out of it to write in her journal, so expect massive gaps between her memories.]]

Day Four
Your Name: Shindou Chihiro
Suicidal Ideation: 0/10
Homicidal Ideation: 0/10
Amount of Sleep Last Night: The amount that I allot for myself to sleep.
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain.: No.
Moods Experienced Today: I sort of felt emotionless today.
Triggers: Maybe it was because I had nothing to do. I'm not quite sure.
Significant Thoughts of the Day: I want to remember Kadaj-kun None.
Favorite Time of Day and Why: None.
Least Favorite Time of Day and Why: None
How You Are Enjoying Your Therapy: I-- ... I still haven't gone.
Noticeable Improvements: No

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I did decide to attend the dance. I just... sort of watched everyone. I'm not really good with crowds or anything. But I got to meet Itachi-sama. I didn't know he was the headmaster of this place. I felt... bad because I feel, I should have known he was of such importance. He told me not to worry about it, but...

From the day before, I said I wanted to give this picture I drew to Kadaj-kun... but... I couldn't remember what he looks like... And I guess everyone being dressed up didn't help either.

And I didn't see Cooper-san either. I wouldn't know because I haven't seen him before either... in person anyway... I-- hm...

Adrian-san seems nice... I feel like I'm bothering her though.

I really miss Renji-kun... Why... hasn't he contacted me... or at least written... Was all the time we spent together... a lie...?

[VOICE RECORDING]

I didn't do much today. So I feel there's not much I should write about... or in this case, talk about. I did go to the art room and drew a bit today. Nothing too much or special. I think, I'll give it to Kadaj-kun in hopes that he'll feel better.

This place is... pretty big. I got lost again in trying to find my meeting with Cooper-san. Maybe I should take a trip to his office before I have to go so I don't miss our meeting this time.

I don't have anyone to go with to the dance. I thought it would be too straightforward to ask Cooper-san if he has no one to go with. N-- not at a date! Renji-kun would be mad. But just someone to go with. I know Kadaj-kun is already taken. So... I rather not ask around.

[[entry is private to Chihiro]]

Um... I'm a little confused... Why are all these people here...?

I know I was sent here... but I don't know why.

Um... Cooper-san...? I remembered about the recording and I listened to it. And um... I didn't set up to go to therapy with you. So um... can we do that? And get pie too? I remember you a bit better now...

Renji-kun... hasn't come to visit me has he? I wonder if Himura-sensei didn't want him to see me anymore...?

[VOICE RECORDING]

So I've been here for two days. I didn't remember at first, but Cooper-san helped me. Actually, today was the first time I was able to talk to my doctor, Martha Jones-sensei. She actually was in Japan once and even conversed with me in Japanese for a little bit. It... made me feel a little better. Her and Cooper-san have been making me feel a lot better here. Maybe Cooper-san and I can write down my events instead of the voice... recording. It just feels weird. And I feel a lot comfortable rereading my memories than listen to me speak about them.

I met... someone new. Kadaj-kun. He's really nice. I was worried about him when he said he was in the hospital. I'm not sure why... but I wanted to see him. But we talked for a while. It was fun. I hope... we can become friends.

Also Ion-kun as well. He... can't remember things too well either.

And Adrian-san. We're roommates. I don't think she likes me too much.

I saw one of the doctor's post up all these rules about relationships. It was a bit confusing at first, but it shouldn't be a problem. I have nothing... here... Renji-kun...

Ahhhhhh!!! I realized that I didn't go to therapy today. Um... I hope Cooper-san isn't mad... I hope... he didn't wait for me. He wanted to meet for pie. I wonder if we have talk and meet and have pie too. It would be nice. I think I would like that.

And a dance is coming up soon. I don't think I'll go. I'm not good around other people and besides, Renji-kun isn't here, so I can't go with him. And I don't know many people, so it's okay. I'll be fine.

[[ just as the previous journal entry of hers, is all private to her since she doesn't let anyone read her journal, thus the voice thing, yeah, not going to be heard by anyone ]]

Um... ...

This... is...?

Um... How did I get this tape recorder...? I never had one before. Did... someone give it to me?

Renji-kun...? Where are you? We're still meeting to work on the novel... right?

Can someone...

...A... schedule...? What is--

[[ Dale Cooper, Chihiro wishes to see/speak with you, although she can't remember who you are really. ]]

I'm afraid I still don't understand why I'm here...

And it's still dark. I rather not be in the darkness... like this. I-- Renji-kun... I wish... I could have said something to you before I was sent off here. I-- hope you're... not waiting for me. They make it seem as if i'll be here for a while. But if they cure my amnesia, then... I can be the same person... for you. Instead of--

I wish... to talk to someone about leaving... I'm really uncomfortable here...

[VOICE RECORDING]

When I arrived here at Malaise House, I filled out a report... a daily report. I didn't know how to fill in the answers, but I did the best I could. I talked to Dale Cooper-san and he helped me figure out where I am. This is the Malaise House. I don't know who sent me here. Renji-kun or onee-san, wouldn't do this to me... right? I've been diagnosed with a mental illness. I didn't ask Cooper-san what it is. I assume... it was because of the accident and my ability to retain memories of only thirteen hours. I don't want to believe that Himura-sensei sent me here. But no one knows for sure.

But Cooper-san has been really nice and answering all my questions. He even gave me this voice recorder so I can remember everything since I'm not allowed to have a pencil here for my journal. Cooper-san is a therapist. He's not mine though. But he told me who I'm assigned to. My doctor is Martha Jones-sensei and my therapist is Belladandy-san. I haven't met with either of them part of me doesn't want to. I'm only comfortable talking with Renji-kun. No one else.

Cooper-san said that we could meet up to go eat cherry-pie. I wouldn't mind he makes it sound like I'll be here for a while, I just hope Renji-kun won't be mad...

I don't think I'll like it here. I want to be with onee-san, Renji-kun, onii-chan, and Himura-sensei... even though Cooper-san is really nice.


[[ ooc: this is all private to her since she doesn't let anyone read her journal, thus the voice thing, yeah, not going to be heard by anyone. ]]

Um... Renji-kun... I hope you're not mad with me. Even though... I know we were supposed to meet at the train station, but when... I woke up, I was in place.

I just... wanted to let you know. I'm sorry for not keeping our promise.

--

Can... someone tell me where I am. I need... to meet with Renji-kun?

Oh and is some sort of journal? Someone took my pencil... but my notebook is here.

[[Chihiro is anti-social at first. So unless you interact with her, she's not going to talk to you.]]